thoughts to digest
food, with all of its necessity, is my curse. a private one; a knowledge which i stuff into my napkin along with my insecurities. eating has never been a natural thing, encumbered by the weight of ... weight ... i'm never sure how much to take, how much to leave, how fast to chew, how slow to digest. some nights its ugly head leaps between my husband and i, crowding out any fuzzy feelings, feeding fury, worry. if we were only spoon-fed, how much easier this all-too-consuming idea of consumption would be.
posted by kanadians in korea @ 6:41 AM
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oh, I wish we could all forget about food except to appreciate its various flavours, aromas, textures, and colours... to appreciate it for its nutritional value; to enjoy the memories associated with certain tastes/scents; and never have the inclination to indulge in it for comfort, nor decline it for superficial prejudice's sake. like you, i wish it was simpler!
spiritual healing certainly isn't connected to food. savouring another chocolate bar won't give emotional comfort. mental peace and rest can't be found in denying one's own need for physical sustinance>>> and yet we somehow connect them all -- forgetting that all our needs are met through God's goodness, wisdom, faithfulness and truth.
could it be that all we'll ever need really is in Him? is it true that all we'll ever prioritize before Him is frivolous?
i'm with ya, Em - it's a hard one. like anything and any dream/fear/insecurity/passion it's all begging to be put into the loving hands of Jesus .. 'submission'. ugh. what a word! ;)
one day all our striving and floundering, digesting and contemplating, will be silenced and comforted in face to face interaction with our Father who's been alongside us through it all.
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